I’m feeling very complacent now.
It’s the first time in as long as I can remember that I’m feeling all contented like this. I’ve not been doing much all day but lie on my bed and stare up at the ceiling since I woke up at 2. Doing that usually leaves me feeling all edgy and frustrated, like I should be doing more with my youth instead of just wasting it away at some place that feels more like a prison cell than a student residence.
But something’s profoundly different today. I can some sort feel it in me. I can’t quite explain it, but I feel like I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Like I’ve finally found who I really am as a human being after having lost sight of that person for some time. Even the dull throbbing ache in my arms and sleepy tiredness in my legs feel right. Maybe it’s the leftover endorphins, I don’t know.
Whatever it is, it feels good. It leaves me happy, and I like being happy =)
Had a good game of 3-on-3 basketball earlier after my run. I haven’t played a serious game in ages and it was really beginning to show. Was done with my 15 rounds and on my way back to the hostel when one of the guys came and asked if I’d like to join them. The guy apologized so profusely he was going all red in the face before explaining that they were short of one more to play some half-court basketball. I figured since all that’s waiting for me in my room are six very dry chapters of Social and Business Communication, what’s the harm of a short game, right? Heh.
Well, it ended up not being a short game. An hour went by before I became aware of how deserted the place has become. Nevertheless, we would still have gone on if it wasn’t for the darkness that came to envelope us and our surrounding all too quickly. It wasn’t until a majority of us nearly got the ball in our faces due to the fleeing sun that we finally called it quits. My left-hand lay-up is completely off cue. Let’s not start on my hooks =S I reckon I’m gonna feel the effects tomorrow. Already my upper arm feels like Jell-O.
Dinner after a loooong hot shower was Subway. I was contemplating to have either a McDonald’s milkshake with large fries or a KFC Zinger Burger when I walked by the Subway poster. It just so happened that today’s Sub of the Day is my favourite of all seven days. Turkey will forever be my favourite type of ham =D
Even while typing this I’m humming. It’s weird that I should be in such a good mood when I didn’t only not make it to wake up in time for class this morning, I am also yet to start seriously studying for my Midterms that’s commencing in two days’ time.
Whatever virus it is that I’ve contracted, I hope my immune system doesn’t get rid of it too soon =)
I’m this close to believing that if I jump out my window, instead of falling, I’d soar up into the inky night sky, and into my most childish dreams.